Trust (random i know)

Inspiration came to me tonight, because of a boy. Now that may sound weird, but let me explain.

A while back i was in love with a boy, head over heels. Now you can probably guess as to what happened,  he broke up with me. After 2 1/2  months of the best relationship i have ever been in, he dumped me. It has been about 4 months since that has happened, and i havent been able to let myself crush on a boy, let alone have a boyfriend since. This boils down to trust, but how. When we trust someone we give them our everything, i told him a lot of my secrets, i entrusted him with my first kissed, i gave him my heart and my love. He deserved it because he is amazing, but it still hurt in the end. That day my heart was shattered into a million pieces and no one was there to pick them up. I have tried many times since then to be able to trust again, it's just been hard. I started talking to another guy about a month ago, i was hesitant, but i learned to trust him little by little. Tonight while we were talking i felt happy, something in me just healed. It felt like my heart was being magically repaired. I knew that i can trust again and that's a good thing. The reason that i decided to tell you guys this is that it is a big theme in my book.

My main character, Ren, gets let down a lot by adult male figures in her life. The list goes as such:
Her real father leaves her, her grandfather abuses her, her "brother" (bio father) leaves her 4 times, blake also leaves her, then her "brother" dies in war. Jason turns out to be an asshole, axel leaves her for the military, then she finds out two guys she trusts are her enemy. Her boyfriend and his brother are killed, she moves. I know there are many other examples in the story, i am just too braindead to think of them right now. Eventually Reece and Cliff are the ones she learns to trust and love, they are the ones who repair her broken heart. Ren's heart has many more walls around it than mine did, she pushes a lot of people away in her life, and it's understandable. She still learns how to trust and love again, and there wouldnt be too much of a story if that doesn't happen.

Trust is something you have to earn, it is not given. It is like a brick wall, it is easier to break down than it is to build. Be careful with trusting people, but also remember that you are allowed to trust, and it is a good thing to do. Not everyone is bad my friends.

I have a song for you tonight, one of my favorites. Saviour by Black Veil Brides. These guys have helped me a lot over the past few months.
~Lonestar☆